Volume 4 Rollins Band

I spend time, searching my mind, walking blindly
I'm alive but I don't know why my thoughts threaten me
Paranoia, fear and guilt, I hope I don't explode
I'm a bomb that ya can't diffuse
A gun that ya can't unload

I don't listen, I don't know, man I don't care
You're talking 'bout all the hell you've seen
Man, I live there
Talk to me and it goes right through
I never heard a word you said
Save your breath 'cause it's no use
You're talking to the living dead

Oh, bullet driven eyes, yeah, what can you tell me?
Oh, I'm living in a nightmare, yeah
I'm on the edge, shrinking back from the ledge
Looking out my window, down upon my heritage
Strip malls, thin walls, people paralyzed beneath the sun
Why me, why now?
I see the dirty millions and I try to survive somehow

Got no reasons, got no needs
I hear gunshots, I hear screams
What can you do to me, what can you say?
I used to be alive but I threw it all away
I used to have problems, I used to live a lie
I've seen the sidewalk bleed
And I watched the mother cry
I used to have a mind, I used to wonder why
But now I go from day to day and wait around to die like he did