​how to never stop being sad ​dandelion hands

Repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
Time has proven that fooling yourself into believing a lie is the most effective way to deal with things you have no control over

Keep listening to the mixtapes they made you
Overanalyze every single word you hear

"Was this a sign that things were going wrong?"
No, no, you were the one who cared too hard, not them

Stay up every single night staring at your phone
Either attempting to gather up the courage to turn these demons
These constant reminders of your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream
Or praying just for one second you could feel the warmth of equally returned love

Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
Always bring your notebook, never stop writing
Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
Watch them smile as you get in your car

Talk down on yourself whenever possible
"My life is shit because I deserve it, right?"
You must have done something really bad;
It's nearly impossible for you to cry now

Avoid your friends for weeks even though they're the only sense of consistency you have left in your life
If they really wanted to see you, they'd come, but they won't
Who cares?