​faith, or lack thereof 2007

Sleepless once again, would rather find meaning instead
Tryna find a purpose, cure my existential dread
I struggle finding faith but I grew up all around it
And if there's someone higher, I'm sorry for not believing

I wanna change my ways
Get some sleep, take on the day
I feel like it's too late
Every second just repeats

I wanna be asked how I'm doing
But I know that I won't answer
I feel so fucking frozen
Every minute, every hour

Are you proud to know me?
Are you happy to resent me?
Wish I wasn't focused
On the way that I present me

Is it so bad that I wanna be something?
I don't fear death, I just fear having nothing

So good night, I wanna dream about the angels
They don't ever judge me, they just wanna keep me stable
They wanna give me hope that better days are coming
And I think I trust them, chasing dreams but I'm not running
No, I'm not running
No, no, I'm not running
No, no, I'm not running
No, no, I'm not running