I DON’T WANT TO BE HERE Phix & Ekoh

[Intro]
I don't wanna be here right now
I don't wanna be here right now
I don't wanna be here right now

[Verse 1: Ekoh]
Yeah, they said the thoughts would get better with time
Said that I would try to change and I meant it, but I
Got this cloud that follows me even when it's good
I can feel it waiting for me, creeping overhead
Looking out but I don't wanna wake you
I know I should probably take one but I take two
I been on the verge of a break or a breakthrough
I don't hear a thing lately I can relate to
And it makes you sick when you hear it, something in my spirit
Brokе and I don't wanna talk about it, too embarrassed
It's been a couple yеars that I been dealing with the same
Trauma mixed with music and addiction with the shame
And it's toxic, not what you thought when you met me
But then I lost it, sometimes the thoughts would get messy
But now they're constant, I know it's all getting heavy
And if I drop this, I don't think that I come back
I never thought all of this thinking would develop a habit
If you expect the worst, eventually it's all gonna happen
We're supposed to be companions, not collateral damage
I know it's hard to give a heart when you've been scarred
And can't imagine life different
That's when I tell you that you'd be better off
With someone better off, not stuck in his bed with his thoughts
Sometimes it's too much to deal with
Say you wanna know how I'm feeling, but if I'm real then