Parts Worriers

Can’t carry it around with you
But the weight of some things is just unshakeable
The effects that I feel are real and physical
Now I try my best to avoid you

I’ve got better things to think about
But one look from you and it was yesterday
The things that now go better seem to fall away
Would if I could but I can’t do

Every time I look at you
One memory comes through
And a fear that never goes away cause there’s a part of me that blames you
No amount of time can change how this hangs on to me

Can’t keep it far away from you
Dodge until you can’t and learn to bury things
Forgive and then forget is wishful thinking
Live like it’s fine, were it up to you

It should’ve been the best of us
But we leave out other loves and simple honesty
How can you ever know if you’re just maybe?
Arms length, the wrong way through