Dear God Ren

[Intro]
Hello
Uh, it's Ren
I don't really know how to start this letter... Fuck it

[Verse 1]
Is this life really what it seems
'Cause lately I've been in this place between awake and dreams
I know I only reach out to you when I'm feeling blue
I promise I'm not using you, I'm just confused
I've got some questions I would like some answers to
Like is there meaning to this state of short existence
My existential thoughts sure hope there are, 'cause I'm resistant
To thinking that there won't be something better in the distance
And God, is there and afterlife where pain is non-existent
If you're up there God, do you sit upon the throne
Or are you a humble soul wearing sandals and tattered clothes?
Do you mingle with the people like an equal then on Sundays
Just kick back and chill and put your feet up?
Did I really choose this life that I'm living now?
Will my sins be forgiven if I speak them out?
I won't lie to you, God, if there is a heaven
I really hope I get there 'cause for real it sounds like heaven

[Chorus]
Reading past the lines
I just let go
Searching for prophets, my faith, it is paper thin
So many questions in my mind
They replay like an echo
They never stop, my Messiah is porcelain