Exist Shayd 479 (Ft. Rozz Dyliams)

[Verse 1: Rozz Dyliams]
My mental state is sick
Mind infected by the brick
Happy this is over and I can not get with it
Every day I toy with the idea of jumping off the ledge
I wish that I could do it but I can't cause I'm a bitch
The only thing I love is something that does not exist
The only thing existing in my life is just this
I don't get to be a father, I don't get to see my kid
I don't even get a choice to tune the voices out my head
Life is torture, Life is struggle, Life is pain that just persists and frankly I don't have the energy within to fight and kick
Smoking on the balcony alone is where I'll sit
Fiending for a hit and never thinking when I'll quit
Everybody quit on me but I'm still breathing - breathe it in
The sound of me pounding my head with my fist
I tried to write a list about everything I was thankful for but I couldn't do it and instead I came up with this

[Verse 2: Shayd 479]
Something that I love does not exist
If only for a moment i could dismiss
The feelings, if you only knew
Deceiving, it was never true
Yes I struggle with the emptiness Ipray
To whomever is above us i can't say
This is for the people who are lost and can't find a way
Trust in yourself as we living underneath the shade