I Hope You Know Off With Their Heads

There's some things I'd like to say before the saying's done
You've been on my mind the entire time that I've been on the run
I tried to play it off like it never bothered me
But now I'll never get the chance and now you'll never see

That even though I hated you almost all the time
I never wished for you to die, I always wished that you would climb
Above the circumstances and outweigh all the odds
And get to live the normal life we've dreamt about so much

And I hope you know wherever you are
I'm sorry I wasn't there from the bottom of my heart

I'm sorry that when you would call I'd shut my ringer off
And I'm sorry I erased the mail you'd send to patch things up
But there's one fault of mine that I won't soon forget
And that was never being there when you were on the bed

I got the news in California, sick with what you had
I was laid up in the hospital, pneumonia in my chest
I felt the pain that you had felt everyday of your life
I relived all my selfishness and finally shed the light

And I hope you know wherever you are
I'm sorry I wasn't there from the bottom of my heart