What Did I Do Wrong Esham

What did I do wrong

(CHORUS)(repeat)
What did I do wrong
Don't wanna live

My momma was a dope fiend but what I mean
She was manic depressed, like the Supremes
And all my tears wiped with the Kleenex
I'm on the scene and I drop dead like River Phoenix
A life I can't handle, so I drink Jack Daniels
Straight, I bought me a .38 with one shiny silver bullet
For the werewolf in me I don't pretend to be
I'm fucked up off life
I walk around with a bloody butcher knife
I wanna kill myself, but first
I think about what's worse
I vision my body take a ride in a hearse
And somebody, anybody, but nobody hears
Buried alive, pine box, and my deepest fears
I been doin' dope since I was 13
But when I close my eyes unconsciously I scream

(CHORUS)

Overdose scare again, I'm doin' heroin
Syringe stuck in my leg like Nancy Kerrigan
Heroin addict like Kurt Cobain
Needle's in your dick, cause your arms outta veins
The system raped me, society hates me
The man in the mirror is scared to face me
My only friend is me, but how can I pretend to be
My friend, I'm public enemy
A number one, son of a shotgun
So when I blasphemy, I bust a brain cell
Dead cells make me faint
But I can't faint no more I don't dream and never sleep walk
Uncut dope make me comatose
Growin' up around the scandalous from here to Los Angeles
What does it mean, amphetamine, niggas so envy they green
As I watch the fiends fiend, my thoughts scream