CHAGRIN 4ria

Mama used to always tell me I was just so special
All these flaws so pure means i'm just ugly in the flesh so
I feel like i’m dying, but i only grow resentful
Kinda felt life meaningful, but now i feel regretful
Papa used to tell me i was handsome and a star
But now i've got no friends, no lover and no fucking heart
I just feel so bitter and a piece of little shit so
Like my happiness is always in a state of limbo

Fucking dummy, please come find me in different depression naps
You could conform or get worn out
Heart broken, i am so torn now
And hopeless, i am so bored out my mind
Like sarah, she's gone now
Still feel the high like i’m getting on board now
Plain bitches storm out

Speak volumes on this, raise the volume on this
Rage comma sadness, bliss
I mean, how could i forget? (x2)

The future conjures suspense
The futile, the nonsense repent
Losers, surrounded by them
I feel swept by this nuisance, what do i do if
Suicide thoughts lodge into this?
Like my brain has a virus like a shitty computer
Shift to some new shit
Sit with this, groove to it
I spit shit while drooling wit
Resilience, truthfulness
I would lose my shit if i knew you did
The shit i could never prove you this
Now my minds filled with doubt
Nevermind, i've announced my drug binge is in full effect
Downward spiral