Losin’ Sleep Merkules

[Verse 1]
I wish that I was happy but I haven't been
I struggle with the realization that I just can not quit
Like am I really a person?
Or just a product of this rappin' shit
I ask myself like, "When the fuck I ask for this?"
It's been a dream that I've had since I was young to be a
Part of the scene, but all this damage that it's done
Makes me question if it's worth it
I've been searching for the answers
With these demons on my back
I'm still determined that they'll catch up
But who am I to really complain?
Just got a mansion with my girl outside the city, I'm saying
Sometimes to see all the rewards, you gotta live through the pain
Then I get fed up with routine and all I think of is change
Which is ironic, 'cause I wonder why it isn't the same
It's hard for me to tell the difference every different day, yeah
Nobody warned me 'bout this part
But I know my real fans'll know my story from the start
It's Merk

[Chorus]
I'm just being honest with myself
'Cause I got here by myself
I'ma keep on doing me
I just drank this bottle to myself
Now I'm talkin' to myself
Lately I've been losin' sleep
I'm just being honest with myself
'Cause I got here by myself
I'ma keep on doing me
I just drank this bottle to myself
Now I'm talkin' to myself
Lately I've been losin' sleep