This Heart A Woman’s Dream Thomas Hardy

        At midnight, in the room where he lay dead
        Whom in his life I had never clearly read,
I thought if I could peer into that citadel
        His heart, I should at last know full and well

        What hereto had been known to him alone,
        Despite our long sit-out of years foreflown,
"And if," I said, "I do this for his memory's sake,
        It would not wound him, even if he could wake."

        So I bent over him. He seemed to smile
        With a calm confidence the whole long while
That I, withdrawing his heart, held it and, bit by bit,
        Perused the unguessed things found written on it.

        It was inscribed like a terrestrial sphere
        With quaint vermiculations close and clear -
His graving. Had I known, would I have risked the stroke
        Its reading brought, and my own heart nigh broke!

        Yes, there at last, eyes opened, did I see
        His whole sincere symmetric history;
There were his truth, his simple singlemindedness,
        Strained, maybe, by time's storms, but there no less.

        There were the daily deeds from sun to sun
        In blindness, but good faith, that he had done;
There were regrets, at instances wherein he swerved
        (As he conceived) from cherishings I had deserved.