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[Verse 1]
My soul is burning from fires that I set
You said you loved me, that's not what your eyes said
You think I'm breathing, I promise I'm not yet
You know those people that suck? Yeah, I'm that
On planet depression till drugs take me off it
The hope that I had slipped away and I lost it
The only bed that I need is a coffin
I'm stuck in a nightmare, won't end till I stop it
And that can mean two things, growing up and facing life or my blood from blew brains
Knife inside my back, it's marked with a few names
All are alterations of mine, I'm what I hate
"Damn, that's some deep shit," nah, it's just real
But real is buried underneath, it's locked away and it's sealed
So I guess deep could justify the fuckin' way that I feel
All the pain's in my head but I swear it could kill
Kill a motherfucker quick, pop one shot and I'm dead
I swear that I tried, I want to but I can't
All I say is TIDE! but can't get the stains out
If I don't die soon, I might blow my brains out
Mama I'm sorry, I know soon enough you'll hear this
But sometimes all of the pain is too much to deal with
I don't even wanna get better, just want to quit
I'm sorry if the day that I die, it seems too quick

[Chorus]
I'm sorry if I die too soon, I'm sorry but at least you knew why
I'm sorry if I hurt you too, I'm sorry if I die like tonight
I don't really wanna take this, I don't really wanna face shit
I don't really wanna get up, I don't even really wanna sleep