I Don’t Want to Die Hi-Rez

Verse 1
I should of been a better man, I never learned  my lessons. I should have never stressed the shit that I was always stressing. I don't know if I was good enough to go to heaven, instead of love I was focused on possessions. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you, I should have cared for you, I stayed even though I knew that I was bad for you. I lied every single time that I sweared to you. I guess that's what I deserve... Now all this guilt that I'm stuck with, was hard for me trust and; I'm sorry to my friends and family, oh Lord I got stuck when, I took advantage of the person I was in love with... I guess me and karma finally got caught up with. I coulda been a better brother son and older cousin, I was wasting too much time holding grudges; when shit was crazy I pretended I ain't notice nothing I swore it was the truth but I really just knew it wasn't...
Chorus
I don't really want to die right now, I'm so sorry for the lies right now...
I don't even have tears no more, if I did I would cry right now...
I don't really want to die right now, I'm so sorry for the lies right now...
I don't even have tears no more, if I did I would cry right now...
Verse 2
I was overthinking way too much, I lost my sanity... I put money and fame over my family. I hope I go to heaven, I don't want to see what hell is; I'm sorry for the times I lied, I was being selfish we were arguing I never got to say goodbye to you, last thing that came out my mouth: was a lie to you. You chasing money and women instead of spending time with you. I guess I had to die to figure out I'd die for you; shoulda said sorry all those times I made you mad, now my son and daughter growing up without a dad. I was never there for you when you told me you were sad; I took for granted every thing we had... I'm sorry that I brought this drama into our home, I should have paid attention to you and just put down my phone, now I'm regretting everything laying here all alone. Nobody made me do these things, I did them all on my own...
Chorus
I don't really want to die right now, I'm so sorry for the lies right now...
I don't even have tears no more, if I did I would cry right now...
I don't really want to die right now, I'm so sorry for the lies right now...
I don't even have tears no more, if I did I would cry right now...