Goodbye The Northwest Division (Ft. Soap&Skin)

[Verse 1]
Last night I had a dream I was burning in Hell
I had murdered myself, I was beneath Earth in a cell
Satan looked directly in my eyes
And said "Fuck, are you stupid?
Sean what are you doing?
What about your son and your music?"
I said I love 'em both and I think I'm devoted
As a father and an artist
Sometimes I'm weaker at moments
Where I just feel these impulses
It's harder for me to control 'em
Sniffin', drinkin', and smokin'
Really I need just to focus (Yup)

'Cause when I woke up
Feelin' like a failure
Almost 25, is our music goin' anywhere
What have I done?
Look at all the time I've wasted I must be nuts
So many tricks my mind is playin' been on the bus
I try and exercise my patience but I'm crushed
Man, I'm just really tired of waiting
For something good to happen
That's exactly what I can't do
I'll make another push, then panic
I've had chances, man, a handful, but