What If Phora

[Verse 1: Phora]
Yeah what if I met God, what would he say?
Would he love me like his child?
Would he look at me and turn away?
Would he be ashamed?
Cause I know I have my share of sins
I know I have my share of rules that I bent
Things that I've done, I'll regret as long as I live
I'm not proud of what I did
Damn, but lately I'm trying to make it right
Lately I'm trying to find myself through the pain
I've been looking for answers
So I've been praying every night
Yeah I'm praying every night, but I feel like I never get a reply
Feel like I'm always left asking myself why
Like why would my people feeling low, we get high
I'm just trying to get by
What if I got rich? What would I be?
Would I be the type that never break bread
And only look out for me?
My nigga don't you see? This shit was never for me
It was for the fam, but if I got rich
Would people start coming around
While plotting to take advantage of who I am
I'm learning to be a man, yeah but that really takes time
And I ain't really got patience dog
Too much shit up on my mind
Damn, but I'm really trying to cope with this shit
Drifting away from family, we ain't spoke in a bit
Guess it's cause I'm too proud to ask for help
So I just sit in my room and I ask myself, "What if?"