​sedative. ​unknxwn. (Ft. ​ivri)

[Intro: ivri]
I'm ready to self destruct, will you hold me, please?
I don't wanna do this, but I'm taking you with me

[Verse: unknxwn.]
Lost thoughts in my head, I might slip up again
I might say the wrong thing, I wish it was the end
The reaper is reaching, my life force is leaking
I'm shaking and freaking out cause I know you don't need me
You promised that you'd never leave me, I told you this wouldn't be easy
I gave you my heart, when you gave it back, it wasn't beating
Now I'm dead again, putting my faith in the meds again
Taking whatever they recommend, I need a stronger sedative
Don't even ask, I'm not alright, I really do not wanna fight
No, not tonight, I would rather die
Than to live in this world with the way that I feel
I miss the old days, when everything was okay
Why can't I be okay? Why can't I just feel good?
Slipping back to old ways just to fucking feel good
I'm a fucking waste of space, never did a thing good
Music is the only way I can let this shit out
I don't like to open up, it's not like you can help out
I tried to let a person in, look how that shit turned out
Fucking up my lungs again, smoke until I burn out
Lesson wasn't learned before, my lesson won't be learned now