​black & white hiraeth

[Verse 1]
You don't have to joke about abandoning me
'Cause I can't shake these feelings and I truthfully believe that you should
Don't worry about what we could have been
'Cause once you get to know me you'll notice I'm not understood
It's not funny, it's a joke to you though
How's it feel to know that everybody's running away?
In my room I got my head in the window
Sort of wonder how anybody ever escaped

[Bridge]
I've been holding out for so long
I delete myself from photos
Or edit till I'm not recognised
That's why it's always black and white

[Verse 2]
So my family don't know what I'm doing
I can't let them know the world that they put me in
Or how badly I want out of it
It's not really my fault, it's partly theirs
And I don't really want them knowing where it all went wrong
It's too late now to fix it
And I don't want them with a complex, it's boring
Or make them think that they caused this, it's awful
They only see the good things, it's horrible
All the shit that I've been through, to pull it off
Stays unnoticed in the background, like it's my fault
I only see you on a holiday, you should come more