​shadow ​guardin

[Intro: Now, Now]
Calling
For the last time
Caught a glimpse of it
Through shifted eyes

[Verse: guardin]
I see them lookin' at me
From right outside of my window
I see the monsters that creep
They lurk when I'm sparkin' my indo
Hold in the smoke 'til I choke
I won't breathe 'til they exit my airways
Copin' by hopin' tomorrow is better
I dwell in the stairway
Fuck it, I just wanna drive
I love the feeling of feeling alive
Do you ever contemplate suicide?
Falling asleep on his shoulder while I
Cry in my pillow alone in my bed
Smother the sounds of the voice in my head
Losin' my voice so I speak with a pen
Writing agendas so I can pay rent
This is my life
This is not shit you could cut with a knife
No tension here but the stress is as thick as the buds
I've been breakin' and smokin' all night
Why do I write all about me?
Why can't you see all the things that I see?
Am I alive? Is my brain just pullin' tricks on me?
Get out alive or just live in a dream
Sorry I suck
I'm full of shit, I do not give a fuck
I got disorders in folders inside of me, tucked
Undiagnosed but I know I am fucked
Up in my head
Writing about it again and again
It's gettin' hard to write songs about flowers
When showers are cold and my phone's always dead
(Phone's always dead)