And Everything Was Beautiful 156/Silence

As I let my head hang down I can hear familiar whispers from the voices I grew to love, the ones I thought I would never miss
But instead I went ahead and proved to you how weak I was, I tried my best and tried to fight for as long as I could
From where you're standing you can tell, I really didn't try that hard, instead I took an easy way out
And tried to run from all of my problems, you know the way I usually do, my predictable actions meet intangible dark thoughts all mixed in this vat labeled "Caution: I'm Unstable"

And I'll warn you all so many times just to hear the same reply of "It's all okay, I'm sure it's not so bad"
I promised them it wouldn't take long at all to see who I really am or at least who I portrayed to be

I can sit here and throw out all of my problems
With simple excuses to pass the blame on to the unsuspecting
I had a routine and I never veered from it
I never took blame for my faults or my actions

I'm stuck in my mind, a self-contained prison
A tortured soul facing punishment as I'm left here with only my thoughts
Can anyone hear me? If only I could show a sign of life
I promise I'm still here, I'm not leaving you