When I have kids Retz hbb [heartbreak boy ] (Ft. Shiloh Dynasty)

Dear diary
When I have my kids
Will they ever know ? ? ?
About the shit I did And the life I chose
About the sins I commit and how I cope ?

At 15 I was tagging up
By sixteen I was baggin up
And then Mark died
And got scattered up
By 17 I was in the chattest slum
Used to watch my dad as he was smacking up
Now I’m 18 and I’m whack as fuck

I sit in my room and prey for help
But when help comes I don’t take it well
I got slit wrists I wanna take myself
Got a mind afray because I was raised in hell

I can’t talk to people I just write it out
Like dear diary this what my life about

As a young kid I seen fucked shit
Drive byes and guts shived

My best mate got taken by the state
Because the place he lived it wasn’t safe
And he’s dead now because he shot his veins
Then Mark killed himself and I’ll gots a name
And a bag of pills and myself to blame