I Really Loved Harold Melanie

They told me when I was little
I'd go to heaven, if I was good
Now I'm a long way from little
'Cause I tried to find heaven, 'cause I thought that I could
I thought that I could
And I thought I loved Harold and I really loved John
I really loved Alphy and I almost loved Tom
I loved them so easy and I loved them so free
So I don't think that heaven will wanna love me

Hallo, song of the willow
The dreams under my pillow turned to tears that I cried
Beauty and love are our riddle
Never to answer but always to try
And boy, did I try?
I tried with Harold and I tried with John
I tried with Alphy and almost with Tom
I left myself open for the whole world to see
Now the world is the heaven that won't accept me

I said goodbye to Harold and goodbye to John
Goodbye to Alphy and goodbye to Tom
'Cause I loved them so easy and I loved them so free
So I don't think that heaven will wanna love me
Oh say, can you see, by the dawn's early light
No light will shine me?