Haunted Zimm

[Verse]
I don't know why I can't shake this
Feel like I've been living life in the matrix
I don't even feel alive it don't make sense
I just wanna be alright I fucking hate this
Tell me when's it gonna change
Cause every single person keeps saying the same thing
Stay strong now you'll make it through the pain
But its hard to see the sun when you're living in the rain
I barely know my dad now his hair's all grey
Cause I spent all of my time doing drugs, trynna fade
Out all of the demons when I couldn't get away
I never said I love you instead I would say I hate
All this time gone that I can't get back
Feel like every single night I'm just living in the past
I lie and say I'm happy every single time I'm asked
I don't wanna be a burden so I just put on a mask
Forty-Thousand people telling me I can't quit
I promise that I'm fighting just keep praying that I win
Still got a lot of things that I still keep in
And I need to let them go I don't know where to begin
I used to watch my pap slap my gram and he'd laugh as she ran
And I didn't understand the man was so bad
So I treated him better than I did my own dad
I was so damn young I didn't understand