NO/S/N - Not Okay Sentaliium

(Verse)
I don’t know what I’m feeling, I know for sure, I’m not healing
I’m feeling empty, I’m receding, I’ve just been tryna be discreet
Late at night, I’m not sleeping, I’ve slowed down on eating
Yeah, late at night when I’m tryna sleep
I have all my thoughts just racing
My thoughts are running in a circle
I can’t really handle this workload
I’m losing a lot of my will, this shit's going on in a cycle
Yeah, but my mask is breaking alongside me, I will not make it
They say we’re meant to go our way, but I won’t take it
I’ll find my way
I talked to my best friend Lex, we got mutual respect
And I can trust him with these facts, yeah, yeah
I have demons on my mind, I might not escape this time
I’m just looking for a sign, yeah, yeah
Everybody asking me why I’m down
I respond, “Why do you shut me out?”
We all have voices and I don’t have a doubt
But every time I talk, I just get turned down
They made me feel like a failure, but yet
I was still out here calling them friends
It’s a rule of life, everything has to end
But I’m still upset that I blew each chance
First time, it happened at a dance
Second time, it was shit from old friends
Third time, cut off, the shit ended
Fourth time, that hasn’t happened yet
This last little while, I’ve felt unwanted
But I know this shit ain’t warranted
I used to love my life and thrive
No more, is this shit a happy jive
I know that I’m not okay, I don’t know what road to take
I know I’m on the last straw, teah, yeah
It all started one day, now I wanna be erased
But I know I cannot fall, teah, yeah
My mind’s at the crossroads, what do I do? I don’t know
But I’m losing all control, no, no
Yeah, there are some times where I don’t wanna be alive
But I’ll make it home this time, oh, yeah, yeah