[Intro]
I shut everybody out 'cause I'm scared of rejection
Turns out, when you do that, you just write away your friendships
Scared I'll never make it 'cause the game is so congested
Scared I'll never make it 'cause the throne is too contested
Swear I'm 'boutta relapse, think I need someone to step in
Pills will be the death of me, they my lethal weapon
Pray my death soon, I've been counting down the seconds
Hopin' heaven's nearing me, 'cause yeah, I got some questions, like
[Verse 1]
Why would God bless me and then he proceed to curse me?
Feels like every person that I fall in love with hurts me
Why doesn't the reaper take me if he's always lurking?
And why does every version of myself feel like the worst me?
Is it all in my head? If I fall to my death
Like, what's the ticket count to my funeral?
Swear I'm always oppressed, never know what's comin' next
Like, why the hell am I always so miserable?
Darkness pullin' me down 'til I'm a carcass
Guess at least then, I'll no longer have a hardship
World's cutthroat, sick of always being guarded
Why does no one want me when I always try my hardest?
Tell me, "It gets better," kind of feelin' like you lyin'
Try to lift the vibe but inside, I'm always dyin'
Devils in disguise always keepin' me distracted
Worst kind of evil hides behind the most attractive
I try to break my habits, but it's hard when you're an addict
Just starin' down my traumas on a track, they call it talent
Every time I cry for help, I get some brand new plaques in
Helpin' all these kids, but who helps me when I'm crashin'?
I shut everybody out 'cause I'm scared of rejection
Turns out, when you do that, you just write away your friendships
Scared I'll never make it 'cause the game is so congested
Scared I'll never make it 'cause the throne is too contested
Swear I'm 'boutta relapse, think I need someone to step in
Pills will be the death of me, they my lethal weapon
Pray my death soon, I've been counting down the seconds
Hopin' heaven's nearing me, 'cause yeah, I got some questions, like
[Verse 1]
Why would God bless me and then he proceed to curse me?
Feels like every person that I fall in love with hurts me
Why doesn't the reaper take me if he's always lurking?
And why does every version of myself feel like the worst me?
Is it all in my head? If I fall to my death
Like, what's the ticket count to my funeral?
Swear I'm always oppressed, never know what's comin' next
Like, why the hell am I always so miserable?
Darkness pullin' me down 'til I'm a carcass
Guess at least then, I'll no longer have a hardship
World's cutthroat, sick of always being guarded
Why does no one want me when I always try my hardest?
Tell me, "It gets better," kind of feelin' like you lyin'
Try to lift the vibe but inside, I'm always dyin'
Devils in disguise always keepin' me distracted
Worst kind of evil hides behind the most attractive
I try to break my habits, but it's hard when you're an addict
Just starin' down my traumas on a track, they call it talent
Every time I cry for help, I get some brand new plaques in
Helpin' all these kids, but who helps me when I'm crashin'?
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