Living the Dream Ethan Jewell

I know that I seem fine on the outside
But the smile is too wide for it to not be mine
But it's been placed there strategically by a demon at my doorstep

I want them to hear me but I need them to approach I
Can't do this on my own
Please read the words that I wrote
I'm trying my best to keep on grinning and keep on fighting
I feel like I can't win
And I should stop the lighting

Quiet place
Is the only location where I feel whole but
What's a quiet place to you
And they won't stop screaming for more
I said I miss you so
You said leave me alone
I must replay thеse games when you say that I havе
Changed

Alone on an empty satellite
A one way ticket to far beyond the empty solar signs
But I was misconstrued
And then galactically denied

My heart was the meat
And that girl was the cleaver
I mean what's the point in living the dream
If it was brought on by a fever?
Everyone around me kept saying I should leave her
But what's the point in listening
When I was convinced I need her?
A moon rise crashing over viscous frothing waves
This idea of what I want
And a destiny that I've made
Finally looking forwards I put my car into drive
Fullfilling myself again of all the things I've been deprived
So I walk down this winding crazy path
To the place where I talked to all of them last
You know the people in my head of dreams
I'm so fucked up in the head it seems
Or is it all just a grand shakespearian tradgedy
A construed version of my own reality
You know I have it so good and it should be okay
But I'm faced with these same bad thoughts every single damn day