Feel Shit Merkules (Ft. Jelly Roll)

[Pre-Chorus: Merkules]
First I breathe in the smoke, then I exhale slow
'Til there's nothing else left but the ashes
From all this weed I blow to all these drinks I pour
There ain't nothing else left but the ashes

[Chorus: Merkules]
I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit)
I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit)
I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit)
I feel like I don't wanna feel shit (I don't wanna feel shit)

[Post-Chorus: Merkules]
And I can't be sober when I'm alone
A hundred missed calls in my phone
I'm havin' withdrawals, leave me alone
Leave me alone, I feel it in my bonеs, I hide it all inside

[Verse 1: Merkules]
I question mysеlf, am I runnin' from something?
I put in the work, went from nothing to something
I still gotta deal with these fucked up assumptions
I'm drunk when in public, still chuggin' and numbin'
I was at rock bottom and I cried for help
So I had to take a break just to find myself
Never been to Heaven, spent some time in Hell
Inside my shell, revenge what I'm tryna smell
I know it's all my fault, I'm the one to blame
Instead of facin' those fears, I would run away
Couldn't tell apart all the love and hate
So fuck the fame, I guess it's my drug of taste
I gotta clear my head and just hit restart
Just did 25 shows and there's 15 more
When the cycle repeats, it won't get me far
So I hide my pain deep within these scars
I got everybody sayin' I deserve to win
But is it worth the regret? Is it worth the sins?
It hurts within, I'm thinkin' bout my worth again
I had to swim across the water 'cause I burnt the bridge
So I try to get by, but I hide shit inside
And I act like I'm havin' the time of my life
And I can't see the darkness if I'm in the light
So if silence is golden then I'll be all right