Am I the Only One Young Jesus

Am I the only one who asks his love
If what I did was wrong when I was younger?
Am I the narcissist who needs the focus racked
To all my pain and my discomfort?
Am I escapist or a sadist? Can you save me?
Can you help me find where I am good?
Sitting up late in bed, self-hate and shame
Wanting to be dead, wanting to grow another body

Wanted to write about the bad men that I’ve known
Throughout my life but I’ll be honest
I have to look within my heart and grieve the things that I have done
To find forgiveness and some love
I am thе good man that my wife says that I am
But I have also been so awful
Absolution nevеr came, so I find a way
To integrate the demons in my soul

Am I the only one who asks
Am I the only one who asks
“Can I reconcile my past?”
Am I the only one who asks?
Am I the only one who asks?
Am I the only one who asks
“Can I reconcile my past?”
Am I the only one who asks?