I’m Not Okay Citizen Soldier

[Verse 1]
Tonight the monsters in my head
Are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high
So they never even make a sound

[Pre-Chorus 1]
It's a mask, it's a lie
It's the only home I've ever known
Cause being who I really am
Has only left me more alone

[Chorus]
I am not okay
And I need you to see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why its so hard to say
I'm not okay

[Verse 2]
I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface
Any kind of proof
That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
My life's invisible abuse
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't wanna be alive