LETTERS BLCKK (Ft. Lil Darkie)

[Verse 1: BLCKK]
And if you find my fuckin' body on the floor
Just know I didn't wanna do this anymore
I used to think about the way that I would pull it off
I'm leavin' letters for my family on the door
I try to keep this shit from turnin' to a war
But all the promises you made, you fuckin' swore
And I could never be content, I wanted more
I send you messages, some more you could ignore
And I was hopin' that my mental could restore
This shit ain't my responsibility, it's yours
To be happy, and you, I did adore
But now I'm diggin' for options inside my drawers
And I can't even focus on the shit I wanna say
I got a million little demons in my head, like, every day
They don't play, motherfucker, I can tell you that
They got me thinkin' I should fuck around and pray
They got me thinkin' I should change the color in the bath
They got me thinkin' shit that I don't wanna say
(Yuh, yuh)
But either fuckin' way I'm 'bout to die one day (Uh)
It might as well be now
I ain't got shit left that I could live for now
Keep telling me that I'ma get better, bitch, how?
I ain't waitin' no more, I think I want death now
And I don't care what I gotta do
Go through bricks with my bare fuckin' fists
Just so I could have one night with my family
And look around and not fuckin' doubt this shit
Is it worth it if I stick around?
I'm causin' way more pain than I ever could happiness
Fuck around and hit the ground
I'm takin' more people with me if I keep on breathin'