Gratitude VNV Nation

It is not love, if love is cold to touch
It is not belief, when there's nothing there to trust
Could not submit, would never bring myself to heel
Determination grows, as each truth is revealed

Torn and repaired, just to endure it all again
Without a reason for my place in all this pain
Though well concealed, the scars they just compound
Until there's nothing left of what was once my former self

My god, look at what we are now
Without regret for all the things that we have done

Thank you for all the doubts, and for all the questioning
For all the loneliness and for all the suffering
For all the emptiness, and the scars it left inside
It inspired in me, an impetus to fight

For the conviction, for the purpose found alone
For the strength and courage, that in me I've never known
And if it seems to you, that my words are undeserved
I write this in gratitude for whatever good it serves

Sometimes I wish, that you could see me now
In the rightful place, where I knew that I belonged
Sometimes I wish, that you might someday understand
To close the chapter, and lay to rest the past