Spotlight Ethan Jewell

A monster lives under my bed
He promised good feelings as his eyes turned red
I hear him whisper gentle nothings as I try to fall asleep
He says this time, this time the serotonin will keep
But I ignore him, and try to drift away without a single peep

His crooked arm peers out and hands me a shiny red pill
He speaks they all will love you, and your heart will be fulfilled
I take it, swallow it with my blood because I don't want to feel this way still
Camera, lights, and a tiny bit of action
Connect your dots, and find the spot, these images are they matching
The image of a happy man, and me within the lights
Me standing in this cash and all these kids just flying kites

They scream my name they shout and cheer, and I just stand here feeling empty
More and more I want, it's all just so damn tempting
People know my name, people know my face
But the people I love, I feel so erased
They love you, you've helped them, but you don't know how to, how to help yourself

They're cheering, it's okay, got so much money and so much wealth
Maybe now they'll listen, maybe they'll understand
That these words don't just glisten
They have so much meaning to this young man
It started as a way, I wanted them to hear me
I didn't know how to talk, so I made it sound pretty
But instead I was greeted with applause
When all I ever wanted was a pause and gentle acceptance