Ambition Ishigami (Ft. Shiloh Dynasty)

Feel like I'm going insane
Stuck in my room
Every day
I sit alone with all this pain
Wondering if I'll see another day
Always pretending to be okay
Lying to myself in different ways

I stay awake stuck with this feeling
All of this pain staying sealed in
Afraid, of the shit that I'm concealing
Why is my heart, what you keep stealing
I stay in my circle, to feel shielded
Always betrayed, so I'm not leaving

Suicidal thoughts, all in my head
Wake up in the morning and want to be dead
Don't wanna talk, just wanna stay in my bed
Moving and talking, fill me with dread
Stuck in place, I can't move ahead
Drifting slowly, I feel like a thread

How can I improve without ambition
I cannot make any competition
My failure, always stuck in repetition
My depression, always has new additions
Wondering if anyone really listens
Having happiness, is what I'm missing