Learning While I Lose Eels

I've been trying, I've been true
But I don't always know what to do
Since it's raining from afar
Didn't see it coming at all

Yesterday's another day
I wish it'd gone another way
Now today I'm trying to see
Just what's ahead for me

I've been around a while
Bungling through the streets
Always I'm hoping for good news
This time it ain't my time, but that's okay
I'm learning while I lose

Took the cheats, didn't work
Now I look like a stupid jerk
Hold your sights while you ask
Watch my heart break in half

Does my jacket and my shoes
Stealing up amd shuffling through
Go to sleep a broken man
Wake up and understand