No Wait, This Is All an Illusion 4ria

And all this abuse
I can't face it
Truth creeps in through all the cracks of your statements
I have to replace this sadness
With the taste of the habits I've made in the past 8 or 9 months
I may just deny some
In fact. I may hide some
Some drugs that I've tried to set fire to all my desires
In dire need of dimethyltryptamine
Got me thinking types of things
Finer things
Fibers of morals torn and liars obliged to pour tears in corners
Cordially invite you to fears
Hoarding these years
The origin of things and the order of corpses
According to obituaries, rarely states fairy tales
I've seen pretty people living swell
And the future repels
Fuck it, I dwell
And my lovers will melt in the depth of my spell

Patterns and habits
I fall off the wagon
And land on a tactic like a broken mattress
Popping pills like some tic tacs
Picture me gagging, so I could be happy
Blame it on genes for the way that I'm slacking
Don't get it twisted baby, you're my muse
Everything to me, I dream about you
I've seen fantasies, can it be true?
Candid, I stand by my truth
You give me warmth
Canada Goose
Damned if I do, damned if I don't
I never knew you
To you I was ghost
Funny cause you're the one haunting me most
Now what do you suppose I should do
Faces turn red on a Roxy Blue
Sunk in a pot of brew
Wash it down and I'm just screwed