Why Not Start Gifted Hands

[Intro]
I'm tellin' you now

[Chorus]
I don't care if it's a race, I'ma set my own pace, on my mark
Ready, set, go
I'm ashamed that I used to shift the blame when I hadn't done my part
Like say it ain't so
Barely even took the time to just stop and use my mind or try hard
That was before
But now I figure, why not start?
I figure why not start? Ayy

[Verse 1]
The biggest smile on my face when I'm around
You can't really tell that I'm hurtin'
Really do my best when out in public, keep my head from tiltin' down
But deep inside, I feel like a burden
Everybody steady in my ear sayin' I should keep goin'
Not realizin' that my hеart is torn
Some days I wake up excitеd 'cause I know exactly what I'm doin'
Other days, I still wish I wasn't born, mhmm
But it's cool 'cause I've dealt with the pain
If I wasn't so solid, then I would melt in the rain
And the cycles I was in, ain't do nothin' but just keep on repeatin'
So I felt insane