Will I Ever Love? Anya Nami

[Verse 1]
Every choice I made was wrong, and
Souls who loved me were left broken
Guess I'll pay for this 'til the end of days
I won and lost and calculated
Why who I liked I never dated
And broke my head deriving formula

[Chorus]
But will I ever love?
Feel it inside my heart?
All that I do is
Fake it all again, fake it all again, boring
Reckoning again, reckoning again, for it
How do I make this vicious cycle end?

[Verse 2]
Convinced myself to like the beds I shared
While crying, going numb and lying bare
I did it all for them and more
With all my body getting sore
How could I be so brutal to myself?

[Chorus]
Will I ever love?
Feel it inside my heart?
All that I do is
Fake it all again, fake it all again, boring
Reckoning again, reckoning again, for it
How do I make this vicious cycle end?