Missing Chunks Helvetia

I was [piling?] the missing chunks
I was missing the [heart?]
Didn't get to [?]
But I imagine [?]
My mind is a tardis
Jumpin' round the lot
[?]
[just smoke some pot?]

[never wanted to go to vegas?]
[finally did?]
[?]
And my depression is [erect?]
Can we still be friends
I'm changing again

I'm feelin' pretty
And actin' real dumb
Pretending to be care free
But as you can imagine
I'm conflicted
And embarrassed