​hydroplaning Eliza McLamb

Something about you liking me
Just doesn't sit right with me
I think it probably means you have bad taste

And you know I'm a pretentious asshole
And I'll find a million tiny things to hassle you about
Make up my mind before I know you and kick you out

And then, of course I'll whine about
How no one could ever love me
Blatantly ignore all of the warning signs in front of me

Drive my car on the interstate while it's raining
I go hydroplaning for fun
Fuck up my life on purpose when I get too bored of being numb

It's 2 am and I'm calling you back
"Hey, really sorry for the way I acted
Anyway, do you wanna come over?
Mess around, play a movie in the background
We don't even have to talk, in fact I'd really prefer it that we not
That way I don't have to think about you as collateral for all my bad decisions."

You remind me way too much of all the love I could've seen
All the shit I've served up cold to all the people that were nice to me
I'm the queen of self sabotage
My insecurities are camouflaged
If I never let anyone in
I won't ever be left again