These Days Caskey

[Chorus]
Said a prayer 'cause I need one thing
Lookin' up at God, please relieve some pain
I ain't changed, man, but things done changed
Life keep endin' up with me in the rain
Guess I wasn't meant to be unphased
Asked for a miracle, don't think one came
Shed a tear for all the time I've seen pain
These days, gotta try to seem sane
These days, gotta try to seem sane

[Verse 1]
Tryin' to get a grip, tight grip on the knots
But sometimes, I can't even get a grip on my thoughts
Rather be inside that box Chevy than in a box
Rather be inside my girl's box than under locks
Toast up for them bad habits that I adopt
I turned savage, man, the world savage, how could I not?
Memories when I see the house, I don't try to pass it a lot
Cried when it was the bottom, hope I laugh at the top
Look I, died so many times, on the inside
It'd make your skin rise, a couple friends died
From fentanyl inside a pill that was pin sized
I got some family members doin' that shit ten times
Things I go through, that I ain't 'posed to
You learn the game the hard way, no one coach you
When up close and far away, no one notice you
You supposed to lose
I just want to know what freedom feel like at the mall
When you ain't gotta scrape a dollar, you can purchase it all
When your father built you up every time that you fall
You ain't have to build yourself back up from them pieces of wall
I tried to jog the stadium, fog the cranium
And nothin' worked, my heart in titanium
I got the radiation without the radium
There's so much pain where I'm from