Am I The Only One VENDED

[Verse 1]
Longevity
Nothing short of false starts and legacy
I don't wanna let you down, confessedly
I just wanna find a way to sensibly, depressingly, find clarity
I have nothing left to lose but integrity
It's a vicious cycle of tendency
Will you ever forgive me regrettably?
Regrettably

[Chorus]
I don't wanna lose this (I don't wanna lose this)
Pleading to you is useless
You're not even there
You're not even here
To see I'm trying
God, I'm trying
I don't wanna lose this (I don't wanna lose this)
Pleading to you is useless
You're not even here (Pleading to you is useless)
But you're the only thing I fear

[Verse 2]
Longevity
Nothing short of shit memories
Left deep in the ebony
Will I ever find clarity?
'Cause the eyes are watching
Your every self-pity
Unpleasant telepathy
They know my every move
But not my identity
That's not my identity