Difference ​mixed matches

[Intro]
4am!

[Verse 1]
I couldn't be there if I had tried
'Cause I can only think for myself
And you wanna know if [?]
'Cause you wouldn't quit 'til you get someone else
How could I know somebody?
How could that make me less than?
And why can't I bring myself to quit?

[Chorus]
Can you hold me through it so I don't have to hear?
[?]
I try to pretend
When you wanted to say
How close you are to [?]
And I think of it always
When I want to forget

[Post-Chorus]
What's the fucking difference?
I couldn't know it

[Verse 2]
Couldn't try to make it be
'Cause I don't wanna know that I gave
It a bit of everything
'Cause I never thought that this could be