Saving, Saved 156/Silence

The bags under my eyes get deeper and I've become such a light sleeper
Anymore, I'll stay awake on my knees I can't ignore
For so long I self-medicated, I think I because I never felt validated
I thought I was losing my mind, but this world was never so kind to me
I was always told to put my faith in god but god isn't here
God isn't here, I never put faith in myself
Someone tell me where you find the will to live And what's the cost
I've got so many words I've yet to say, But my voice is so lost
I promise I'll hang on, I promise
I don't know for how long, I don't know how long
Cause I've live the path less travelled
Laid to waste by demons my heart has battled
I was always told to put my fair in a god I haven't seen
One that's never been there for me, I never put fair in myself, but god isn't here
I don't think I'll ever trust myself, But I've weighed my options, it's all I've got
And I'll make it somehow No thanks to you, no thanks to you
I don't think I'll ever trust myself, but it's all I've got, God isn't here