Overdose Jelly Roll (Ft. Still Matthews)

[Verse 1: Jelly Roll]
Every day's harder, been trying to change
But lately I really been feeling the urge
Dealing with demons, been hearing 'em speaking
And popping this shit just to deal with the nerves
And I don't know who I am anymore
Feel like the past is knocking at my door
Bound by these chains, my old habits won't let go of me
I'm somewhere between the man I was and who I wanna be
Struggle with recovery, tryna find inner peace
Tryna find a way to quit my need to feed the inner beast
And my back's against the wall
And I could lose it all
There's a freedom that's involved
Every time I fall

[Chorus: Jelly Roll]
Hopeless
Why do I always feel so hopeless?
I say I love it, but it's really 'cause I need it
This addiction I keep feeding
I can't have this feeling
I know I'ma need a freedom
But I'm hopeless
Why do I always feel so hopeless?
I fucking hate it but I feel like I can't beat it
I could fly away this evening
But I don't wanna overdose