Not Even Here Cafuné

I lie awake
I fall asleep
To dream [?]
To dream the things you never said to me
Things I wish you'd said to me
Cause it's not your fault
I don't blame this on you
She's lost control
Of the way she feels
I put myself in the way of it [?]
I lie awake
Make the same mistake
Time, time again
I wish that it could end
Right here
When I wanted you
I never wanted to leave
Any space for rejection
Leave any space for connection
It keeps me wanting more
[?]
And I want you (want you)
[?]
I wish you could see your [?]
[?]
I'm not even here