Shovel Vanilla Taurus

[verse 1]

Dig dig dig
Dig dig dig inside myself
Figure out what will help
I'll probably end up in hell
But I ain't a satanist
Dont believe in greater shit
So I dont know why the fuck I'm even sayin it
I ain't even feel sad no more
Don't feel happy either I guess
Now this musics got me stressed
I dont know the fuck I am no more
These days I want 2 floors and 4 doors
What more can a man ask for?
A lakeshore, a notepad, pencil, to be outdoors
We pay for the peace corps
Yet got a world war
At our front door
I wanna play minecraft and be young again
Just wanna be a better friend to them
Think I'll call up next weekend

[Spoken Word Interlude]

There was a period of my life
Where, I thought that I wouldn't amount to anything in life
And I thought this way for a long, long time
It was easily the darkest point in my life
During that time I thought I'd likely end up killing myself before graduating
If I ever even did that
And I thought that that is what I deserved for being such a waste of people's time and resources
I thought I had no meaning in life and that life meant nothing
These thoughst got worse when my idol, Evan Wallace passed away on february 13th 2017
Around then I thought about suicide just about every day
I thought I didn't deserve to be alive
But now I know none of that's true
Everybody has a purpose in life
Nobody means nothing
And even then
Sometimes I still have those thoughts