Lavender Daughter Xana

[Verse 1]
I'm not a forgiver
I cry every winter
I sleep in your shadow
It only gets bigger
I bleed 'cause I'm heavy
I never was ready
If I'm being honest
I never learned to want this

[Verse 2]
I lay with them to prove
That he didn't break me
Swear that I'm trying
But I hate sex lately
I wanna be gentle
My words taste like metal
It's awful when it's over
I never got older

[Bridge]
A scared little girl
Who still needs her daddy
My hands go down the jeans
Of men who treat me badly