fate ​guardin

[Intro]
Taylor 'bout to fucking flex

[Verse 1]
Hey you, I just called again to say
Sorry for the things I do, I haven't been okay
I'm rippin' you apart until you're nothing but a face
I don't realize I do this shit until it's just too late
And I struggle tryna juggle 'til my problems go away
But I never understand it, never see the light of day
I just sit inside my room, smoking 'til my lungs go gray
And the smoke is lying to me, caving in until I fray
And I know my problems come from what I birth inside my brain
Mixing my reality with what my mind considers pain
Didn't know what I was doing 'til it all just went away
I fucking lost you in the process, a monster under the reign
Of what I feel and it ain't fucking true
I've grown another hue
Never actin' like it matters, all I fucking do
Supposed to use this music shit as a fucking tool
But I've been drowning in my water, it's a darker blue

[Bridge]
The water rises and I'm trapped inside my head now
Don't wanna talk about it, rather go to bed now
Let it build, let it build 'til I stress out
And fuck sobriety, seshin' until I'm gassed out