​before the storm ​yesterdaynj (Ft. ​guardin)

[Intro: yesterday]
And the funny thing is
No matter how hard you try
You always seem to disappoint people
I don't want to be this anymore
I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to fucking live
But I have to convince myself
That this life is worth living
That these people and places
Are something to live for

[Verse 1: yesterday]
I've been saving this for the weekend
An eighth of spliffs to numb my emotions
My hair is split, I'm cutting the lose ends
My brain is shit, I'm tired of trying
I'm sick of this patience
Logic comes to dying
I knew you were lying but I didn't care
You were something to stop my self hatred
I didn't dare ask a question
You're always on my mind
Intervention for loving too many times
Did I mention this pain is a way of life?
You learn to live with it or you let it eat you alive