Bad, This Year YCK

[Verse 1]
Sad and distressed no delivery fee
They got my brain haywire in the season it’s free
I jump and hurdle in my skull I deal with mental acrobatics
I don’t take my fucking meds so I can settle the imbalance
You attempt to repair me but I’m beyond the repairing
You told me that you’ve been in shock with how well I’ve been faring
Maybe I’m a master in deflective conversation
I don’t ever talk about me in a normal confrontation
Speaking of that I hate expressing emotions
Painting all the walls red from my mental explosion
So I keep my hopes low an immovable force
Of all the things that make me blue there’s no removable source
Well if I ain’t drinking then I’m checking my phone
I got some people up around me yet I still feel alone
Cause they don’t know what I’ve been planning on an hourly basis
And my thoughts are so much more than what I’m outwardly saying

[Chorus]
Don’t restrain I need the truth
Do you want me cause I want you
A little piece of me escaped
When you left here and moved away
Don’t restrain I need the truth
Do you want me cause I want you
A little piece of me escaped
When you left here and moved away
Protect me from myself be merciful
I know you think I’m fine I act invulnerable
Honestly, it’s gotten bad this year
They’ll find me lying down and ask what happened here